Friday, December 11, 2009

Effected by Recession

So Im really bummed about my job they just gave me a knarley pay cut and now Im trying to find another job its hard because i dont want just regular job i dont know im weird like that and I have gained weight so Im even more bummed out but dont worry I have taken a stand and have many goals and hopefully i cant fulfill them with in the next month or two :( ahhhhh why me

Friday, November 6, 2009

Jimmy Choo for H&M




Im so stoked right now because I just found out this morning that Jimmy Choo is doing a collection for H&M clothing stores (limited to certain stores only) and my mall is the one they are having one at the date of the release is November 14 on a saturday.

I swear I will be there at 6am if I have to here are my choices....


The only thing is that the blue suede dress is $250 and the rhinestone dress is $130 and the shoes are $130 I dont know what I am going to do for money but I dont care, Im gonna have to suck a lot of dick to get these..... I dont know why I have never felt like this about clothes before but I cant help it I absolutely adore them and I have to have them.

Sunday, October 25, 2009


So last night I went to the Playboy Mansion last night and I had the worst time ever. I went with my girl steph and Sorta hung out with ashley, marilyn and christine. It was so crowded i couldnt move and the floor was really uneven stone so we were tripping everywhere!

There wasnt even enough room to park and hang out with out someone shoving you, not too mention I lost my camera! I am so pissed so now all the youtube videos i made on there are out there somewhere waiting for someone to lauph at! Oui! I might have to wait til christmas for a new camera

Tuesday, October 6, 2009

New vids!!!!

Ok so I just made some new videos i just need to post them :)))) yaya!

Friday, September 25, 2009

MIA

So a few of you noticed that i have been missing, if you guessed that i died.....well no i havent i have been in a weird funk lately, since i have become vegan i have actually gained weight and i put all the puzzle pieces together and realized i have been eating more carbs because of it....

being vegan doesnt make you lose weight you still have to monitor your portions unfortunately i have it so the past day or so i have cut down my intake severely. I keep forgetting sushicatny's voice when she said "you abuse you lose" i abused my eating intake so now i have lost my privilege to eat accordingly until i learn my lesson.

Some of you know that im not fat BUT if i dont win this battle with food mentally and emotionally then i will regret it when im older and my metabolism slows down. Ill have kids and then throw out the "fat" excuse as to why i dont get ready and take care of myself anymore.

Dont worry ill be back in a few im just feeling gross, BUT the positive is that my skin has cleared up since i stopped in taking dairy products, apparently i AM allergic and i never knew

Monday, August 31, 2009

Skinny Bitch


So my jaw dropped recently when i found out that I had put on an additional 2 lbs from my last blog. I am so disgusted with myself even KNOWING what i was putting into my body and did it anyway so as a result I abused and then i lose so this time Im gonna do it right before i go back to my original weight. ahhhh the dreaded lemonade diet again yes folks again, so if you reading this then you already know im a bit nutso about weightloss stratagies....BUT you love it! ha ha jk


so a lot of people have bought this book skinny bitch including some celebs such as posh shown in this pic, this book is amazing it gives you a blunt explanation of what we really are putting into our bodies im half way through and i bought it today, not to mention it really took my mind off of eating! because i was so into it and then i bought another book that i will read after im done with this one, its called why french women dont get fat, heard some good things about it but ill let you know when im done ;)


Thursday, August 27, 2009

My New Weightloss journey

Soooo, I decided to give myself a break, I think me getting sick is from all that dieting, not to mention I have done some hard work to get where i am so now I have decided to maintain it I went up from 112 to 114

BUT I think thats pretty damn good if you say so myself, i have been eating what I want and im glad to say i hit a platoe which means that i can eat what i want and maintain 114 and I havent even been excersizing! So in about a month Im gonna do another diet to get down another 2 or 3 lbs and maintain that for a while as well.

I think im doing good this way because its not driving me NUTs that I cant get my weight down right away but if i manage it like this my self esteem and motivation will continue to keep on truckin! ha ha

So there I said it ..taking diet breaks in between is totally working for me, but hey it might not work for you...keep trying new things and see whats good for you, thats what i did and now i finally found what works, I pretty much have gone through so many fad diets that now I am able to filter out the ones that work for me!:) so happy!

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Wednesday, August 19, 2009

Cookie Diet day ...uh..lost count

So I'm still on the cookie diet but its now become a part of my regular diet that ive lost count! BUT I weighed myself this morning and it "says" that im 112 lets just hope its right... these scales have got me all out of whack!

Anyhoo since i have been kinda sick and when i mean kinda...you know when your on the verge of getting sick and your all omg tomorrow is gonna be SHIT! well its been like that for the past week i have never fully gotten sick, and its also been hard to breathe so i have been doing indoor workouts

What my recent workouts consisted of is dancing straight for 30min take a 10 min water break dance for another 30min take another 10 min waterbreak and then do some lower belly crunches (gets rid of the "pooch")

INSTRUCTIONS FOR POOCH RIDDING BELLY CRUNCHES: lay on your back flat hold on to the legs of a chair or couch and stick your legs in the air and while they are in the air push them up towards the sky (your butt should be off the floor at this point)

here is a little vid to help you get the idea BUT REMEMBER you dont need a gym machine to do this at home, this is just to show you the position and idea

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Wednesday, August 12, 2009

Cookie Diet Day 4

So im doing pretty good better then i thought i would do and whats more awesome is that i lost 2lbs!! so im doing pretty good, now i think i have been having motivation from this girls youtube channel but im pretty sure if she saw me she would think i was crazy for wanting to lose weight but her channel is sushicatny i have been love love loving her vids cause they are motivating! Well just wanted to update you a bit on whats going down :)


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Sunday, August 9, 2009

The Hollywood Cookie diet


So today is my first day on the cookie diet, so far so good im not really hungry so i guess thats a good sign, I would be lying if I said I wasnt excited about dinner though. ha ha! So day 1 almost done, Im going to start exercising tomorrow to double my weight loss. The amount of time you are supposed to do it for is for as long as it takes you to get to your goal weight which is really reassuring. My mom is doing it too so cant wait to see that, shes gonna look and feel good, inside and out! so yea...


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Tuesday, August 4, 2009

My Birthday Las Vegas





So I went to Vegas for my birthday, unfortunately we only went for a day so I felt like i didn't get my FULL experience, but needless to say I had a lot of fun. I will be going back again soon though ;) but while i was in Vegas i totally let loose and I ate so much and every time i had a meal I cleared the whole plate!

I felt so disgusting when i came back and so now im at 116 i don't know how i did it but i managed to put most of it on regardless of all the exscersize that i did. I felt like all that running i did was pointless, even though it wasnt i just feel like it is. So now i have to get back on track before i gain another two pounds. Today im fasting well smoothie fasting anyways, just drinking shakes and thats it like meal replacements and stuff

I will track my weigh in everyweek my goal is to lose 2lbs a week

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Next TUESDAY will be my next weigh in so stay tuned!

Wednesday, July 22, 2009

Diet Aftermath

As excited as I am to get back to eating and it was a good break for my digestive system i didnt seem to learn my lesson, I have not eaten anything fast food BUT i have been eating whatever i saw in front of me, i went from 105 to 116! even though my stomach says im full my taste buds are so excited they want more, i have made myself feel sick that i ate more then my stomach can handle but 116 still good considering that I went from 118 BUT im so disgusted with myself that I have decided to go on it again, for three days this time and then try to eat healthy,

and if your going to comment that you know of a diet or you know what works please dont waste your time, im pig headed and i like to do things MY way, not anyone elses but me most of the time it doesnt work out but i have made some progress and im slowley learning, but before i hit 118 again im going back on the diet shed some water weight and work out this time on the diet to lose actual fat and take metabolism booster pills starting friday cause my friend is coming over tomorrow from london and i want him to try the spaghetti tacos we make :)

so.....yea tomorrow morning im going to wake up early go for a jog and do some hardcore work outs to prevent more weight to put on.

Sunday, July 12, 2009

Morning of day 8

SO its the morning and my stomach is a little grouchy but i figure its from drinking that broth, i know before this diet i used to eat before i went to bed and id wake up and felt as if i was starving, as oppose to not eating before i went to bed and i would wake up feeling fine/lil full. I dont know what that means but im assuming thats what happend last night.

Im kind of scared to step on the scale to see what damage that the broth has done, even though its not food it does have calories and any kind of calories right now (because im in starvation mode) is goin straight to my thighs! I guess well see I have a twitter account and i havebeen using it so ill twitter about my weight tonight

Saturday, July 11, 2009

My lemonade diet

so this diet is killing me although it is a bit easier then i thought as funny as that sounds, I think I have told everyone about it and came so far that i dont want to let anyone down if not that then i want to prove my will power. If i can withhold food for 10 days then I can do ANYTHING.

BUT I am so hungry well not hungry but whats a word for hardcore craving? well i feel like that like my nose senses have tripled and i can smell anything from far far away, and people smell weird to me as well like as if disease is seeping through they're pores i think i might possibly going delusional.

my friend came over with this juice filled with all your nutrients and more, which is what my body really needs right now its day 7 and im so close to the finish line i need to suck it up and realize that one day i will eat, when i do eat i think after im done eating, well i feel the same 5 min before i ate that burger and i could have ate something else to make me feel full, just because i smelled it and it was in front of me i ate it.

*please note: I need all the support I can get any cool comments is just the ticket!

Sunday, June 14, 2009

My roomates a douche

Today I went to church with the rents and then my mom took my Nanny, my sis and me to Victoria Gardens! I got to buy a bunch of stuff! ah moms gotta love em{ :) } <---(my warm and fuzzy feeling inside face) well I had such a nice time and hung out with my sis which we havent done in a while, until I get home I had to go pee and who do i find in the shower??? well if you guessed my dude with another chick your wrong, ha ha not that bad BUT I found my roommate had his chick in OUR shower! If your thinking "girl your trippen" i probably am, but he has had his girlfriend over everynight; practically moving her in!

shes an ok girl, nice, simple and a little bit of a dork, but hey who isnt, here is my deal with that..... since I have been the only girl living there with two boys I feel like I run that house. like Im the man of the house errrr Woman of the house anyways, and I feel like there can only be one and now this broad is throwing herself in MY territory. Ahhhh! I threw a shit fit and told him how i felt screaming about her in front of her. I felt bad its not her fault its his fault because he knows how i am and how i have always been, and if he thinks he is going to walk all over me he has got another thing comin! considering his low rent and not paying any utilities whatsoever with ALL the amenities, i had to say something because my dude is too big of a puss to stand up for us.

BUUUUUUUT the one thing that keeps me in a good mood is the new things i bought :)
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This is my favorite my mom bought me a balenciaga....Ha ha who are YOU kidding I found it at a cute little dress shop for 30 bucks pretty tight tho
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Wednesday, June 3, 2009

Havasu

So I went for memorial day to Havasu, actually i had to work at Ember on Saturday night so I left at 2am and got there at 8am crazy I know, but when I got there the guy who owned the boat found out I was going ( cause the last time i went on I made an ass of myself being crazy drunk) and didnt want me to go so I apologized and made a lil drama considering I havent slept through the night so i was also feeling a bit delirious, but we both made up and had a lot of fun, OH and my buddy was down there and the past three years that i havent seen him he has been rollin with BONE THUGS! so when we went to Kokamos they let us hang out in their VIP area which was way fun in fact tonight i get to see layzie and slone bone sing somewhere in la apprently the other members are doing something else or in jail ha ha dont know much about em but i do know they love to party!

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Playboy Mansion

So this was a lot of fun! although i wish i would have waited and gone to kandyland instead, i just got re invited and I cant go because i have have have to make money im so broke right now its not even funny :( at this party I did get to see David Hasslhof and vern troyer (mini-me) mini me is actually smaller then a midget! I was standing at the bar and i saw this guy had a baby on his shoulders i was all omg who brings their kid to a party like this and at the mansion no less......man i was wrong he turned around and it was vern troyer, I wanted to chill with him in his cabana but there were a lot of people who wanted to take pics of him so i bailed, and my friend actually hung out with David hasslhof when she did the fashion show she said he was way funny and couldnt stop talking about himself being on baywatch....odd....

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Wednesday, May 6, 2009

Cinco de DRINKO!

So last night I went with the girls to main st for cinco de mayo omg it was so crazy and so much drama! Not with me, my friends dude, but why is it that guys always ruin the night?? Well it actually didnt ruin my night. We ended up going into Sharkeez PEOPLE WERE OFF THEIR ROCKER! Everyone was plastered before we even got there. It was fun tho for sure we got these cool little mug necklaces, fuckin novelty items are even more fun to drink out of!

So weirdest thing tho last night when i was in bed I woke up from a dead sleep to hear my ferret shreiking! I jumped from my side of the bed jumped over Dusty screaming because I cant see what was hurting him, I had let him run around my room for the night so I was like omg something fell on him, Dusty got up all panicked like "What! What happened" I turned on the light and he was just chillen there like whats up whats all the fuss about?

I cant believe that just happend what a mystery we couldnt figure it out because Dusty heard him shrieking too, so I dont know what was going on I put him back in his cage, my heart was pounding, I felt so nautious afterwards....what a little fuck head! he wasnt even hurt

Well here are some of the pics we took last night despite all the drama
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THIS ONE IS A CLASSIC!
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Monday, May 4, 2009

Footsies!

So these are the new shoes that I had bought today the famous 3 for $25 from Footsies, they are sooo cute I absolutely love them :)


This pair is really cool because I can dress it up or go casual like with some jeans and a cute top
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I think I will wear these with something plain like a white blouse and jeans with navy blue and white jewelry or maybe gold jewelry
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These are just plain sexy I can see myself wearing these with a black dress white belt and gold jewelry
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Sunday, May 3, 2009

The Opera in LA

Soo yea another wild night I know I had a lot of fun because I cant remember most of it and I have a lot of pictures to prove it, My dude called me from work the next day and told me that I had come home passed out woke up in the middle of my sleep like exorcist status and screamed at him "stop sitting of my fucking face!" slapped him in the face and then i ran into the bathroom opened the shower door and passed out in the bathtub..... Weirdest shit i wish i could remember :(



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Saturday, April 25, 2009

The Shore In Long Beach

Sooooo, last night I went with one of my friends Steph to The Grand Opening of the Shore, it was fun but it could have been better, They had this band there that was like Metal School but not, I was hoping that they would have played a couple of songs and then get on to the music but ney! HA HA they played all night, a lot of people had enjoyed it, but it wasnt my cup o tea ;) The thing that sucked was that finding someone to buy us drinks was a f*ckin chore!

One of the girls that worked there felt bad for us so she had tried to help, at one point she told me she didnt understand it, when she first saw us she was like ooh! easy sale cause we are pretty decent chicks someone might wanna buy us something....NOPE now I know what your thinking....omg she is soo rude buy your own damn drink! Girls IF you are buying your own drinks STOP!!!! GIRLS SHOULD NOT HAVE TO BUY THEIR OWN DRINKS, and imediatly stop talking to a dude if he doesnt! lets just picture a scenario......


If you find a guy and he doesnt want to buy you a 10 dollar drink what makes u think he will wanna dish out cash later NOT TO BUY YOU THINGS JUST CAUSE YOU WANT IT, thats NOT what its about, im talking about taking you out to dinner or to a movie or just being a cheap ass when you two are in public! How embarrassing, the men now a days are getting used to women just setteling for less and being ok with jerks and cheap ass's DONT SETTLE for less dude! CHIVALRY CAN COME BACK if you make it come back...... and just think you might be putting out for these guys, I know good guys are hard to find but they are out there and in the mean time MAKE THOSE CHEAP ASS'S WORK FOR IT

and dont feel bad if they buy you a drink and you are not into him, its a game of "law of averages" to them..... for every 10 girls 1 of those girls is bound to go home with them, BUT JEEZE KEEP YOUR GAME WOMEN!

Now that I have rambled on in anger here are some bored sober pics of me and steph

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Friday, April 24, 2009

Far East Movement

So last night was just another work day or was it??????? To my suprise Far east movement the singers of girls on the dancefloor performed at my work, super cool guys! I video taped it and it will be on you tube shortly sorry if I am unable to pop these suckers out quick enough

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Thursday, April 23, 2009

Club Ecco In Hollywood

So last night I went to Club Ecco in hollywood, I thought this would be a ton of fun considering its all hyped up with a lot of celebrity sightings, maybe cause it was my first time I dont know It was really small inside and the music was uncomfortably loud like I couldnt enjoy the beat because my ear was in so much pain not too mention the whole club is a dance floor so you feel forced to dance which Im not a club dancer..........funny I know considering that Im a flippen go go dancer, I dont know maybe its cause Im used to getting paid to dance IDK its weird

The only celebrityI saw was Thomas Ian Nicholas from American Pie which wasnt as awesome as I thought it would be, and the crowd is very different, like Im used to my little Orange County bubble and once you step out its like oh shit the f*ckin real world what do i do what do i do omg omg...ha ha ......................................anyhoo I guess I need to go again to get a second feel first times are always the "getting to know you" so now that "I know" I can possibly feel a little more comfortable the second time around and hopefully see some REAL celebs ha ha jk

This was me in my car after I had felt so uncomfortable that I left early....as you can see I didnt get crazy because my make up is still on ha ha ha ha

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