Effected by Recession

So Im really bummed about my job they just gave me a knarley pay cut and now Im trying to find another job its hard because i dont want just regular job i dont know im weird like that and I have gained weight so Im even more bummed out but dont worry I have taken a stand and have many goals and hopefully i cant fulfill them with in the next month or two :( ahhhhh why me

Jimmy Choo for H&M

Im so stoked right now because I just found out this morning that Jimmy Choo is doing a collection for H&M clothing stores (limited to certain stores only) and my mall is the one they are having one at the date of the release is November 14 on a saturday.

I swear I will be there at 6am if I have to here are my choices....


The only thing is that the blue suede dress is $250 and the rhinestone dress is $130 and the shoes are $130 I dont know what I am going to do for money but I dont care, Im gonna have to suck a lot of dick to get these..... I dont know why I have never felt like this about clothes before but I cant help it I absolutely adore them and I have to have them.

So last night I went to the Playboy Mansion last night and I had the worst time ever. I went with my girl steph and Sorta hung out with ashley, marilyn and christine. It was so crowded i couldnt move and the floor was really uneven stone so we were tripping everywhere!

There wasnt even enough room to park and hang out with out someone shoving you, not too mention I lost my camera! I am so pissed so now all the youtube videos i made on there are out there somewhere waiting for someone to lauph at! Oui! I might have to wait til christmas for a new camera

New vids!!!!

Ok so I just made some new videos i just need to post them :)))) yaya!

MIA

So a few of you noticed that i have been missing, if you guessed that i died.....well no i havent i have been in a weird funk lately, since i have become vegan i have actually gained weight and i put all the puzzle pieces together and realized i have been eating more carbs because of it....

being vegan doesnt make you lose weight you still have to monitor your portions unfortunately i have it so the past day or so i have cut down my intake severely. I keep forgetting sushicatny's voice when she said "you abuse you lose" i abused my eating intake so now i have lost my privilege to eat accordingly until i learn my lesson.

Some of you know that im not fat BUT if i dont win this battle with food mentally and emotionally then i will regret it when im older and my metabolism slows down. Ill have kids and then throw out the "fat" excuse as to why i dont get ready and take care of myself anymore.

Dont worry ill be back in a few im just feeling gross, BUT the positive is that my skin has cleared up since i stopped in taking dairy products, apparently i AM allergic and i never knew

Skinny Bitch

So my jaw dropped recently when i found out that I had put on an additional 2 lbs from my last blog. I am so disgusted with myself even KNOWING what i was putting into my body and did it anyway so as a result I abused and then i lose so this time Im gonna do it right before i go back to my original weight. ahhhh the dreaded lemonade diet again yes folks again, so if you reading this then you already know im a bit nutso about weightloss stratagies....BUT you love it! ha ha jk

so a lot of people have bought this book skinny bitch including some celebs such as posh shown in this pic, this book is amazing it gives you a blunt explanation of what we really are putting into our bodies im half way through and i bought it today, not to mention it really took my mind off of eating! because i was so into it and then i bought another book that i will read after im done with this one, its called why french women dont get fat, heard some good things about it but ill let you know when im done ;)

My New Weightloss journey

Soooo, I decided to give myself a break, I think me getting sick is from all that dieting, not to mention I have done some hard work to get where i am so now I have decided to maintain it I went up from 112 to 114

BUT I think thats pretty damn good if you say so myself, i have been eating what I want and im glad to say i hit a platoe which means that i can eat what i want and maintain 114 and I havent even been excersizing! So in about a month Im gonna do another diet to get down another 2 or 3 lbs and maintain that for a while as well.

I think im doing good this way because its not driving me NUTs that I cant get my weight down right away but if i manage it like this my self esteem and motivation will continue to keep on truckin! ha ha

So there I said it ..taking diet breaks in between is totally working for me, but hey it might not work for you...keep trying new things and see whats good for you, thats what i did and now i finally found what works, I pretty much have gone through so many fad diets that now I am able to filter out the ones that work for me!:) so happy!

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